An open letter to the Person who made me feel alive again

Subject: An open letter to the Person who made me feel alive again
From: stellarfab11
Date: 27 Apr 2016

I spent a lot of time online, reading through pages of stories, hoping I could find one that fits mine. For most parts, I can relate to an experience, but it just won't match.

I always thought that crushes are a wonderful thing. Everyone who has one gets to feel that childlike excitement and uncontrollable rush, which causes a whole lot of smiling and day dreams. That's the feeling you gave me and you don't even know it.

For such a long time, I've seen you as this beautiful, carefree and smart woman who's totally crush-worthy. You never had the slightest idea that you have always been the highlight of someone's day: mine. Well that's pretty much how it started. A crush, just a crush.

Over the months, I've built up enough confidence to finally befriend you.
When i did, the excitement and rush grew more and more, then it came to a point where in I couldn't contain it. I always figured out that if you knew about it, you'd probably find it creepy or if by any chance, you'll realize you felt the same way about me (wishful thinking). I remember thinking, "screw it, I won't know until I actually do something about it."

That's basically the reason why I told you about it. I liked the fact that I was able to come clean and tell you things I've kept for so long. I absolutely think you're amazing and you deserve to know that you're doing something right in someone else's life.

Spending time with you, and little more each day, I realized how gorgeous you are and your smile, it lights up your face in the best way, I'd just be lost for words.

Whenever you explain something to me, you tell me a story, or that thing you do, when you talk non-stop for a minute or two, half of my consciousness just watch how your eyes sparkle, how your lips move and how your cheeks blush, while the rest of me tried hard to play it cool.

Whenever I hear you say my name, my heart would skip a beat and my stomach gets filled with butterflies. I'm pretty convinced that I'm addicted to you, it's a bit scary but I love the feeling I get when I'm around you. It might seem crazy, but i literally climbed a mountain, since it's the only way that i'd get to spend more time with you.

You make me feel alive, something tells me that you and I, could happen. Everyone thinks that you're this vulnerable, weak-hearted woman who's too fragile to be left alone to fend for herself. Well I refuse to agree to that. I think you're assertive, brave and empowered, someone who's gonna go through hell and back for the ones you love.

Meeting you was my life's crazy twist. You came at a time when I needed something to live for, to keep me moving forward and to inspire me to be better in all that I do. Yes, you inspire me.

Thank you.

Thank you for taking that risk, for defying everything, for giving me the chance to know you better. I loved every second that I get to spend time talking with you. I always wish that time would just stop running. I got a million thoughts in my mind about you. Now, it's getting a little bit scary for me, I'm at risk of falling. Hard.