I am one of the girls out there who is still stuck in the idea of true love. Often times I caught myself asking the same questions again and again such as “How will I know if it’s true love?”, “How does it feel when you already met ‘the one’?”, “Is there really someone destined for me?”. Questions like these are frequently popping up inside my head. But none of these has been answered.
I believe every girl has her ideal guy. Of course, I also have an ideal boyfriend. A boyfriend who got all the qualifications I want and a boyfriend who will stay for the rest of my life. I’ve always been dreaming of having a boyfriend close to perfection. And whenever someone enters my life not having these characteristics, I’d presume he’s not the one for me. I've been wandering in a place called Cloud Cuckoo Land (a city of perfection), assuming to meet 'the one'.
But you know, eventually, I realized having a love life is not all about perfection. It's not the qualifications that makes someone ‘the right one’ for you. I realized that when you love someone, you don't just love him because he is your ideal guy or he is the guy of your dreams. Rather, you simply love him for who he is and not who you expect him to be. I am glad that someone entered my life and made me realize that love isn't all about fantasy; I am glad that he knocked on my doors several times.
To the one who didn't give up on me, thank you! Thank you for being with me from the beginning up to now. I am confident enough that you would also stay until the end. You are the type of best friend everyone would like to have. Thank you for lending me your ears whenever I need someone to talk to. You are definitely my human diary. Thank you for doing everything just to cheer me up whenever things aren’t falling into place. You’re one of the people who told me that every cloud has a silver lining. Thank you for being the best guy friend.
To be honest, the moment you said you like me, it seemed like the world has come to an end. I never expected and wanted that to happen. You are my only guy best friend and I didn't want to risk everything.
(A short poem I made when you said "I Like You")
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“I like you” is a phrase
Coming from a guy,
Whose feelings
He can’t easily deny.
“I like you” are the words
I didn’t want to hear;
For even the Lords said,
They might be unreal.
“I like you” is something
I want to believe;
But it could also be one thing
That would stop my heart to live.
-Simba G.C.
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But I realized life is all about risking. We never know where life could take us. So, thank you for letting me know how you really feel. Thank you for making me feel I am loved. Thank you for always doing anything just to see a genuine smile on my face. I’ve been blowing you off several times but that doesn’t stop you from loving me. I kept pushing you away but you didn’t stop caring about me. Thank you for giving me respect despite all the heartaches I gave you. Thank you for letting me know I’m beautiful every single day. Thank you for seeing the best in me, recognizing all my flaws, yet still choose to love me. Thank you for waiting despite having no assurance of me liking you back. But now, my feelings are starting to grow. Sooner or later, you will see the fruit of all your efforts. Thank you so much for seeing my imperfections yet still continue to give me the love much more than (I think) I deserve.
You are the person who helped me become fully aware that having a (non existential) perfect man is just all about fantasy. I realized how blinded I was with all these that I tend to leave you out of the picture. I ought to close my doors for I am not willing to open it for the wrong man. And as time passes by, I realized that love is indeed an open door.
But the question mark is still hanging over the idea of you being ‘the one’ for me.
True love is on my way.
Again, thank you for not giving up!
Yours truly,
Simba G.C.
