Dear Best Friend,
When put in to perspective, we haven't been friends for a very long time. Without wanting to sound too clichéd, it sometimes feels like we've been friends for much longer.
I always struggled to make friends, but from day one we clicked and fit together in a way that I have never experienced with any other person. You're the only person who I can completely let loose with. I don't care if you see me acting silly or making weird faces. You listen intently to my strange musings and random ramblings that I would never share with anyone else, and laugh when I say something utterly ridiculous or make a terrible joke. You understand my weird sense of humor and who I am, even if you can't understand why I like so much milk in my tea or why Toy Story is the best movie ever made.
And when I need someone to just listen to me or talk to after a bad day, you are the one I turn to. You know exactly how to annoy me and then how to make me laugh so that I can't ever truly be annoyed with you. You are the best friend that I have ever had and I am so thankful each day that we met.
But one thing that I never counted on was falling in love with you.
I have tried for so long to avoid acknowledging this terrifying truth. In a way I still don't want to, because that will only make it more real. Sometimes, I still try to convince myself that it's just a silly crush that will disappear within a few weeks. But deep down I know that it is more than that. I hate myself sometimes for falling in love with you, because I know we will never be anything more than friends. So I have to lie to you and pretend that I'm completely fine with the way things are.
Sometimes it hurts to love you, knowing that I will never be enough. I dread the day when you finally find someone who will be everything to you that I never could or will be. But all I want is for you to be happy, just the same way I know you want me to be happy, even if it's not together.
I will always support you and be your best friend, come what may. You have already given me so much and I couldn't have asked for a better friend. There are many other ways that I love you, and even if it's not the way that I want, I know that you love me too. And I wouldn't change that for the world.
Your Best Friend
