I first want to start this off by saying that I'm sorry. I honestly don't think that there are enough times I could say it or enough ways that I could word it that could truly convey the way that I feel. All that I can do is sit here and replay the memories of you and repeat to myself over and over again "I'm sorry".
I also want to say thank you. Thank you for giving me the time of my life. Thank you for leaving me with memories that will endlessly flood my heart and soul with the love and joy that I have for you. Thank you for being such a great person and for all of the laughs and wonderful times you have given me. You are the best person I have ever met.
I don't know why I never appreciated you the way you deserved. Maybe it was my past, or fears, or I just loved you too much and didn't know what to do with it all. Nonetheless, there is no excuse for what I did and how I treated you. Because of what I did, I lost the person I love.
I truly wanted you to break my walls down. I wanted you to know the real me from the inside out. I wanted to share every part of myself with you, but I ruined that. I ruined us. Now I am the one left to suffer.
I think of you often. I replay memories of us in my head and even imagine what would happen if I did some things differently. I think about what life would be life if we were still together now. I think about what I would have done for you for Christmas, Valentine's day, you birthday.. I want to make those days, and every day, special for you.
I hope that you are truly happy with the girl you choose after me. I hope that she can give you everything you deserve and that she can come at least half as close to loving you as much as I do.
Thank you for all that you have done for me. Maybe in a perfect world where the stars align in our favor we can be together again. I know what I did wrong and what I need to change. Until then, please remember that I love you with all that I am.
The summer will always be our's.
