To be honest, I’m not sure why I’m writing this. Maybe a confession? Maybe to just get things off my mind? Although the reason escapes me for the time being I feel the need to say it nonetheless.
I can’t recall a time I’ve had to turn to others for help. I tended to be the “strong, emotionally distant” type who thought he could conquer the world without letting anybody in; then after many years when I was finally ready to let somebody in I was reduced to rubble in the blink of an eye when that person made the choice to leave my life. I didn’t know how to handle the situation, or even myself at that point. Emotions flooded through me like they never had before, but then you somehow managed to make it all okay.
The funny thing is I don’t even think you realize that you’re the reason I’m okay now. Merely being around you was enough to quell my distraught feelings. I haven’t the faintest idea why. So many of my childhood friends checked up on me in an effort to make me feel better, which I appreciate to no end, yet you were the only one with whatever it was that somehow healed all the damage that had been caused. Many of these friends have known me for more of my life than they haven’t and they still have yet to hear me tell them ‘I love you’. Even a few of my family members that I hold near and dear haven’t heard the words as far as I can remember, however you’ve managed to elicit those words from me in record time.
Even more intriguing are the ways you’ve helped me. Initially the ways you helped me were more direct, but then as the wounds slowly began to mend I found myself becoming more and more happy with having someone to watch over and protect. Your smile, how you worry over the simplest things, and the way you accidentally let out a snort when you laugh too hard are the types of charming, little things I’d throw my life on the line to preserve.
You helped me through a pretty rough time and captivated my heart in the process. To the girl who fixed me and got me to fall head over heels in love with her, thank you.