I have to say thank you. You may have been the one person that could, and can still, get me through the hardest parts of my life. However the man you are now, is different than the boy I fell in love with. The boy I fell in love with thought making out in his dads truck was awesome. He also believed with his whole heart, at 2am, that we wouldn’t fall asleep cuddle. God your mom was pissed the next morning. But that boy is only in my memory now. Your girlfriend now is lucky. You were the sweetest, most enjoyable person I’d ever met. However despite that we had our troubles, mostly trust issues on both parts. You know things that haunt me so greatly that only 3 other people know, 2 being your cousins.Our break up almost killed me, but our friends helped me through it, without pushing either of us away. I am so thankful that you were there for me when my mom died. I wish I could have been there in the same way when your dad died. I will always love you, even if I’m no longer in love with you. I could not have asked for a better first love. I’m sorry our dreams of having our little girl never came to reality, our moms would have loved the name we chose.
Forever with love,
To my first love