First of all, I'm not sure if you'll be able to read this... I know I told you that if I ever write an open letter I would send it to you but I can't seem to do it.
Isn't it crazy how we met? You forgot why you added me and I don't know what has gotten into me when I messaged you the first time. (Don't forget that after that one time you were the who initiated another conversation which led to us talking everyday until now). I believe we met because we were destined to. We even get intuitions that we have to message each other without knowing why.
I don't know if I'm not clear enough that I LOVE YOU more than a friend. I know we are miles and miles apart and we only know each other through social media(We've been talking everyday but as you said, I still feel the same way as when we first talked). So call me crazy, but I want you to stay in my life forever. I might be delusional because I believe that one day you're going to see me the way I see you and we'll find a way to be in each other's arms.
You know me more than some people who I've known the longest. You know that I am honest with whatever we've talked about and I have expressed to you whatever I am feeling. You know how dramatic, weird, and crazy I can be at times and you still choose to talk to me everyday. It's funny how you always know what to say and how to make me feel better. You don't tell me things that I wanted to hear, you tell me things that I needed to hear. You've shown me another perspective every time.
Thank you so much for always being there, for making me feel better about myself, for believing in me, and for making me feel loved.
For the record, I don't want to be your girlfriend. I want to be that girl, the girl you will have when you turn 32/33 (get it?). The one who will never give up on you. Remember, I love not only the flowers but also the roots so I know what to do when the weather changes.
I am jealous of every girl who is near you cause they get to see you, talk to you face to face, and they get to see your real smile.
But mostly, I am super jealous of your ex, cause until now you can't get her out of your mind. And maybe, you can't move on because you're still waiting for her. I am scared for that day when she will run back to you because I'm 70% sure you'll be happy to let her back in, even if you always tell me that you miss her but you don't want her back.
Anyway, who knows what will happen in the future. We just have to wait and see for ourselves.
Go! Fulfill your dreams! I'll be here with you...always.
P.S
I'm looking forward to the day when we'll attend your ex's wedding. You're going to be the handsome doctor and I, well... right now I don't know what I will be when that time comes cause you know that I am still unsure with what I want to do, but I will surely be that petty friend who's gonna seek a bit of revenge for you. (Remember, if I ever cause a big scene I'll run away as fast as I could and you, you better run after me! I don't want to leave the venue alone and please make it fast... You know I get bored easily).
