Dear you,
You are the most amazing man I've met thus far in my life. However you found me at a bad time. The man before you destroyed me. Ripped me open, and tore me apart piece by piece. He beat me physically, emotionally, and mentally. Because of this mistreatment, that went on much longer than it should have, but when you feel trapped, you deal with what you have to in order to survive. I am scarred. I am beaten down and battered. I am fighting so hard to make myself better. I want to be better. I want to not have to ask you about that girl who liked your picture. Please understand, when I ask question that seem stupid, or seem like I may not trust you, that's not how I feel. It's just I get nervous sometimes, I get these little thoughts that plant themsevles in my head. If I don't ask you about these things, they will grow and get more negative. Despite my best efforts to calm myself, telling myself there is no reason to think these things and that I trust you. So please understand, and reassure me. It won't last forever, I promise. One day I'll be healed I'm sorry for what's going on, I wish I wasn't this way. Please just know I'm trying. I'm always trying. I love you.. please stay
