It's been a long time since we spoke. Years have went by since I've seen your face. All of this time has passed and I just can't stop thinking about you, not a day goes by that you don't pop up or something that reminds me of you. I learned to let go of what was and start living for what is and if it wasn't for you I would not be the person I am today. You taught me so much about myself in the time we spent apart. Even though you aren't around it seems like I'm still chasing you trying to better myself everyday just praying that one day I might run into you again and show you I'm not the boy I was. It's been almost three years and I seen you for the first time. We smiled, we hugged, we spoke for hours. It was like time had paused and picked up right where we left off, not a thing had changed and not a feeling had disappeared. Was it fate doing this to us? Bring us back together. Was there a reason why these feelings stuck around and I couldn't let go. One thing led to another and I found my lips resting upon yours and my body had lost all control. A million butterfly's pumping through my heart, my mind rushing with thoughts of the past and the thought of being home again... Its these feelings that have brought me to this moment realizing that I want to find out why I'm still holding on and why everyday I cant stop thinking about you. Everyday is a struggle for me just hoping we take that leap to lay it all out on the line and figure out why? I cant focus, I cant eat, the hardest has to be breathing. My life has been consumed with thoughts of you since the day you left. I feel the anxiety coming on just thinking about you or as I lay in bed at night wishing that I would wake up finding you there sleeping just so I could turn over and whisper in your ear "I Love You." as I use to. I hope that after all this time there was a reason we could never let go and soon I can find you in my arms.
