The letter I will never send

Subject: The letter I will never send
From: The Girl Next Door
Date: 3 Mar 2017

To the boy I love

I'm writing this letter to tell you something I can't bring myself to tell you in person. I'll probably won't even be brave enough to post the letter, yet I know if I don't I will regret it my whole life because someday it will be too late. I know the timing isn't perfect as you just ended a long relationship and I just got into one... But when is timing ever perfect?
You might already have figured out where this is going, though before I get to it, I want you to know that if you don't feel the way I do please just ignore this letter and pretend you never got it.
So here goes: I love you with all my heart and I have been in love with you longer than I care to admit. When our eyes meet my heart skips a beat and my brain shuts down. I know it sounds really cheesy and believe me I'm suprised these are my words but it's true. I know your story just like my own and whenever you're feeling down I start feeling sad as well.
I know that I'm not really your type and you probably think you're way out of my league. But still I need you to know.
I don't know when our once amazing friendship ended but I swear if I could go back in time I would do anything in my power to prevent it. I hate that I lost you.
I feel like I know you like the back of my hand, it seems the only thing I'm clueless about is your feelings for me.
I'm begging you, if you feel the same way I do please just tell me... I know a lot of people don't wanna see us together and I know it's going to be complicated, but I don't want to spend my life with a second choice if all this time I could have been with you. You're the only thing I have ever really wanted and you will always be my first love, my first choice, no matter what happens.

With all my love