I NOW UNDERSTAND.

I now understand.

I now understand why you left me. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you bad mouthed your first wife. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you cleaned out our bank accounts. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you went on a spending spree. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you text my friends. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you lied to anyone who would listen. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you rejected your children. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you lied to your solicitor. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you lied to your barrister. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you lied to the courts. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you lost your job. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you cut off all utilities. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you cancelled the pet insurance. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you failed to pay child support. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you spoke with unforgivable cruelness. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you ran hot and cold for a decade. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you called yourself a "broken man". It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you have no long term friends. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you didn't want me to work. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you "took care" of all the banking. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you allocated me my "pin money". It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you'd send me on vacations with me friends. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you'd suddenly distance yourself from people. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you were obsessed with designer clothes and image. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why "status" was so important to you. It had nothing to do with me.

.....and

I now understand why you keep up the social media abuse and the vitriol. It has nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you will say anything you can to continue to try and tarnish me to anyone who will listen. It has nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you keep saying I should "stop playing the victim". It has nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you bestow grand gifts upon your new "love". It has nothing to do with me.

I know understand why you have your new "love" doing your dirty work for you. It has nothing to do with me.

I WAS feeling out of control, I WAS feeling crazy, I felt there WAS something wrong with me.

BUT

I now understand.....that had nothing to do with me.

I now understand why you had to completely and utterly do everything you could to try and destroy me, to try and ruin my reputation, to nearly take my health and make me question my sanity. It had nothing to do with me.

I now understand I was nothing but a mere pawn to be collected, moved about, picked up, put down, knocked over, picked up and put down again and again and again, then finally discarded when no longer needed. That had nothing to do with me.

The passion and vigour with which you executed your attack against me; so relentless, so ruthless, so unabashed, so utterly reprehensible and abhorrent. Had, still has and forever will have nothing to do with me.

I was merely a colour to smudge in your paint-by-numbers life.

You are a Narcopath. I am a survivor.

It had nothing to do with me.