Hi there! I hope you're doing well. It's your special day. Perhaps, you rarely celebrate "special days" as you already have more important things to do. Even so, I wanted to do these things to express how much I value you as a person and to remind you how your existence means so much to the people around you.
I have so much to say, but can't put everything in words. So, let me summarize the whole idea into one word - choices.
Life is full of choices. Even not making a choice is a choice.
For me, funny but to be honest, I did everything I can to forget you. I even tried to manipulate how I felt and how I thought. Made some regretful choices. Still, dreams about you made up my countless sleepless nights. And, random thoughts about you made up my days. I hear your voice anywhere. God, I don't know how that happens! Tell me, do I already need clinical diagnosis?
In fact, there were certain times when I felt you were in pain, but I couldn't do anything. I was afraid these were just my playful mind messing with me. On the other hand, I was also afraid I was starting to develop psychic skills.
Guess there are just things we can never undo, ain't it? Probably, 'til I breathe that last oxygen, you'll always have that special place in me that can never be taken away. I am starting to accept that and go on with my life.
But for you, surely, there are many things you haven't experienced and many questions left unanswered. Don't worry, you'll get to the bottom of these one day. Just don't rush. Continue on enjoying and finding happiness wherever you are in this point of our lives. You're very good at that. Then, always be careful with your decisions. Difficult and life-changing situations often require longer thinking-time. And, when you feel like you're running late on the race, remember that everyone is running their own race. When you feel sad, lonely, depressed, or anxious, don't forget to pray and remember that your value can be, at no means, measured by human standards. When you're tired or when work is taking its toll, rest or sleep. And, when you can't, listen to good music or talk to a dear friend, there's no amount of negativity that cannot be taken away by good music and a good friend. Someone will always listen to you no matter how small your problem is. When some people are hurting you, don't mind about them you'll never be stuck with them for the rest of your life. But, when you love someone, don't hesitate to tell him how you feel. Although, you have to make sure that it's love. Otherwise, you'll end up being more afraid to love than you already are.
At the end of the day, I'll always be looking from afar as one of your avid fan. Silently rejoicing every moment of your happiness. Silently praying and crying every moment of your dullness. On your birthday, I hope you find more answers to your questions and more meaning to your life. Perhaps, I'll continue giving you flowers until finally, somebody gives you his heart and you give yours too. :))
Happiest birthday!
P.S. Don't find me, I'm okay and you don't owe anything to me. I didn't purposely wrote anonymously only to be found out. Happy birthday, Don!
