First things first, neighbours, same school, same hobbies, same interests, this is starting to sound like a dream even without realising it.
In order to dream, we must first sleep.
She was that extra boost of energy, a person like me needed. I was a pushover who said yes even though I wanted to say no, excessively doing what I can do make everyone else around me happy, to an extent that I allow myself to get an hour of sleep a night. That never happened but knowing myself, I would.
We started off playing badminton together, some social networking conversations but the image of her was snow like her skin like her Facebook profile picture, a snow queen during Christmas. I didn't know it yet, but she would provide me warmth like hot cocoa on a cold winters night.
Now we're going to the gym together with a common goal of getting fit. That summer holiday the snow melted and she was the energy that got me out of the house when I wasn't working at my coffee station. I went to the beach three times in a row. what felt like it was going to be another break from school but the start of full time work turned into a real holiday. The street suddenly explored many times at night and our hangouts were gloriously prolonged.
No one ever realises that dreams never work unless we do, and if all you're doing is dreaming, someday you're going to wake up to a different reality, a nightmare and you're going to wish you never slept.
Now he's trying to make me remember but I'm not letting myself back into the trauma.
Message: My grade, her grade. make comparison. be true to yourself, don't lose yourself trying to please others. What makes you happy, drugs addiction. Narnia Wardbrobe.