Broken Hearts

To my partner in crime As I sit here again awaiting your newest dismissal I wonder how I ever got here to start with? Beautiful I'm told, successful and free of any baggage, free to have any man I might wish. Yet here I sit aching for one that is already taken. Its silly really for me to be here agonising over every flippant word, wondering if you might ever be mine. Its actually quite outstanding how you managed to pursue me until I gave in to your charm then cruelly manipulate me into believing that this time 'it was different'. The very way you eased my guilty conscience by convincing me of how wicked your spouse truly is and how incredibly unloving a home to which you belong. Of course not quite wicked enough to actually leave............. Yet despite the fact that I know...
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I don't know why I'm writing this, maybe I think it'll help me get over you. Or maybe reading this will help someone feel less alone tomorrow, or next month, or a few years from now. That would be alright too. I feel incredibly stupid. I always thought I was a pretty smart person, but how smart can I be if I couldn't even see what you were doing. Looking back on it, I know now that you were using me. Or perhaps I'm overreacting and reading too much into all those late night texts. Actually, no, I am not overreacting, because even if it wasn't your intention, you hurt me, and the way I feel is valid, even if it's hard for me to admit to myself. And I feel stupid saying these things, it's not like you cheated on me. You were never mine and I was never yours to cheat on, but somehow...
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To my husband who just told me he wants a divorce I have a question; how can you just ask for a divorce as if it is as easy as picking between a giant loaf of bread or a small loaf? Did you think at all before you said it? Did you regret it as the words slipped off your tongue? Marrying you was the only easy decision I have every made in my life, divorcing you will be one of the hardest. I do not understand how you can love me so much and then just stop. Ohh Yea, you probably never did to begin with. I want you to know how much I do care about you as much as you disagree, in case you were wondering I have never cheated on you, I have made sure the kids were bathed and fed before you got home from work, and I have never failed to have you a hot meal to come home to. I have always gotten...
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There are some things that need to be said, and I think you should listen. I really thought you were different. Every kind word and thoughtful message sent my way didn’t just make me happy, it made me feel like I was someone. Not just a nameless nobody, but someone that another person was thinking about enough to send a message to. I was no longer the pathetically single girl sitting in her room laughing to another episode of The Office, or the girl cooking dinner for one, or the girl getting out of class with no new messages from anyone. I was someone with a personality, with a sense of humor, with a thought worth sharing. I was someone that resembled something more than a nameless nobody. I was someone with hope. And then just like that, it was gone. All of a sudden I didn’t matter...
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sobrang mahal na mahal kita hon.. sobrang sakit talaga. akala ko mahal mo din ako.. kasama ang Panginoon sa pagmamahal ko sau. alam ng Diyos kung paano at gaano kita minahal.. kung paanong umasa ako sa pagmamahal mo. hanggang ngaun napakasakit.. d ko kaya ito. paano ko haharapin ang lahat hon.? sana pinili mo na lang ang lolokohin mo bakit ako pa na walang kalaban laban sau.? napakasakit bakit mo ako ginanito.? ano ang kasalanan ko? napaka tanga ko naniwala ako sau. pinakamamahal kong jeffrey.. sinayang mo ang pagmamahal ko sau paano pa akong magtitiwala ngaun sa tao sa ganitong pinaranas mo.? akala ko mahal mo din ako.. akala ko.. ipagdasal mo na lang ako hon.. sana may natitirang kabutihan jan sa puso mo mapalad sya kasi lubos ang pagmamahal mo lahat ng...
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An Open Letter to The Guy Who Doesn’t Chase, The chase isn’t about you. The chase is about me. You think I want you to chase me because I like the attention or that I crave the drama. The truth is I want you to chase me because I want to see that you care enough. The world has taught us that love is hard to come by. There are many times throughout our lives that we thought we were in love. And perhaps we were. But we also learned that love is cruel. It tore us, broke us, and transformed us into what it wanted us to be. It wore us down until it wasn’t love anymore. It wore us to the point that we became runners. When times get tough and things get hard, we flee. We need to distance ourselves from the pain in order to seek clarity. We run partly because we’re terrified...
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First off, let me just tell you that you ARE good enough. I know that empty feeling in the pit of your stomach that you're feeling on a daily basis. I know the pain of lying awake at night, staring at the ceiling; wondering when you'll find someone worthy of the spot beside you. I know how many tears you have shed for boys that will never know what they did to you, and probably wouldn't care even if they did. I know this, because I've been in your shoes. I am you! You are me. So believe me when I say that things will get better. I am living proof that a fresh start is possible and happiness is obtainable all on your own. Some people will never appreciate you regardless of the time, the money, the love, the encouragement, the positive influence or the numerous other...
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Yes I went. On a date. Like everyone told me I should, like the world expected me to. I agreed to it and I went. He was kind, confident, very good looking. He had the car, the job, the house and a designer wardrobe. He was polite, chivalrous and ever so respectful. We had a wonderful time and got on really well. The date was well thought out, well planned and a total surprise. I felt like I was so special. We talked, we laughed, we felt at ease in each others company. A success I hear you say! Yes, a success in theory, a success to the untrained eye. Except the night was tinged with sadness. With doubt. Because when I looked across the table and looked into his eyes, I didn't feel the earth spin. I didn't get lost in his gaze. There were no butterflies. No feeling of complete...
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My Best Friend It was a cool evening in mid-January when my life would change forever. I found myself out in public under bright lights surrounded by people. I was feeling good; looking forward to what the new year would bring, but little did I know that before I would leave that place, the new year would take away something so special from me. I had missed a call. I like to think that I missed that call because destiny was allowing me to hold on for just a little longer. When I realized who the call was from, I smiled and promptly returned the call. On the other end was that something special I was referencing. Someone that had been in my life for a decade. Someone who I had built both good and bad everlasting memories with. This person had come into my life unexpectedly and was...
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An open letter to mothers around me: First off, I'm going to say I'm sorry before I even begin. I'm sorry if you sit at the table next to me at a restaurant, or walk down the same aisle as me at the grocery store, or anytime we may be at the same place at the same time. Also, I'm sorry to my sisters, and sister-in-laws. I'm sorry for staring.. I'm sorry for silently wondering why your more "qualified " to be a mom and I'm not. I'm sorry for silently wondering why God gave you 5 children and I would be tickled to have 1. I'm not the only one( regardless of who wants to admit it). I'm sorry for gazing at your little family and admiring the life you have and wishing it was mine. I'm sorry for taking it personal, and for making you probably feel uncomfortable sometimes. If you seen...
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