Hey.
It's me, your girlfriend. I first want to start start off by saying thank you. Thank you for giving me a second chance, thanks for never giving up on me, and thanks for loving me like no other man has or will.
I lied to you. And I broke your trust, and I put a space in between the two of us. Honesty is the most important thing to you in a relationship, I have never been good with telling the truth. Having this problem, I have screwed more things up than I can count.
Broken Hearts
By today’s standards, all good love stories have a happy ending. These stories are worth reading or watching, but what if the best love stories don’t have happy ones? What if the best love stories end horribly? This one ended in the worst way I could have possibly imagined but for her, it may have been one of the best things that ever happened to her. I was asked once to describe the girl I’m in love with and what happened to us, here is what I said.
Saying she was the most amazing person I have ever met is an understatement. I have always been a dreamer. She was the pair of wings that let me fly to every dream I could ever imagine but she also held me down when it started flying too high. Her soul was that of an angel who always saw the best in people, even when they couldn’t see it in...
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Dear Daddy,
I never thought the day would come where I’d live without you. Now it’s been almost seven years and I’ve learned to live without you every single day. I’ve gone through many highs and lows since you’ve been gone, but I never thought this one would hit me so hard – until it did.
I’m getting married. He’s the most amazing, understanding, caring person I’ve ever met and I just know you hand picked him from heaven for me. He’s truly my angel and he’s changed my life in ways I never thought were possible. Every girl dreams of a man like him, and I was lucky enough to find him. Every dad wishes for a husband like him for their daughter. I wish he could’ve met you and so does he; he grieves you every day with me. He seeks the approval of my family, and I can only imagine the...
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What I would give anything to have known.
(July 15th, 2013)
Dear little girl,
You worth is not defined by how much this boy likes you. He is irrelevant. Before you start this, think about all the wonderful things you have going for you. I know he is older, sexy and mysterious. But you are young, innocent and naive. Please, stay this way.
Sweetie, starting this with him is going to ruin your life. He is still destroying you to this day. It is November 24th, 2016. It is Thanksgiving Day, three years later. He is still running through your head. He is still controlling your heart. You are his puppet.
I am begging you. He isn't worth it. The happy days to come are not worth the days that will make you feel lower than you ever have. He is going to leave you during the worst...
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Dearest girl,
I know what you're feeling. Believe me. I know because I am a girl and I feel these things, too. I know what it is like to not feel accepted. I know what it is like to hate yourself. I know what it is like to have a breakdown in your bed because you feel as if no one in the world cares that you cannot find your place.
I know what it is like to be desperately in love with someone. I know what it is like to wish you were prettier, skinnier, funnier, nicer, or smarter....so maybe that someone would love you back.
I know how it feels to be your own best friend. I know how it feels to just go through the motions. I understand how hard it is to manage school, practice, a job, your siblings, your college applications, the SAT, your pets, your chores, your gas tank. Trust...
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I get knots in my throat when I think of you, still. But of course that's to be expected when you lose your first love. I see you've found someone new, and so have I. So why do I still feel sick when I think about all of the I love you's we said back and fourth. Why do I still get twisted butterflies when I think about your promise. The promise to never leave me, the promise you broke with no remorse. I'm writing this letter to let you know how bad of a place you left me in, not only mentally, but physically as well. I miss you. I miss everything about you. But you're happy now with your new girl. She's beautiful. Perfect honestly. It brings me joy to see that you're happy, even if it's not with me. I do love you, and I always will. Even though you broke your promise, I forgive you. I'm...
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I was never afraid of loving you. I was never afraid not to be loved back either.
I didn't wish for what we had.
I didn't wish for a happy ending either.
Knowing you have a girl, and kids, it was enough for me to see you and be with you every single day in the office.
Knowing my place from the start, it was killing me since then.
Sorry for the temptations. Sorry for reaching out to you. Sorry for letting you fall for me. Sorry for being your mistress.
Sorry for loving you so much that I forgot how to love myself. Sorry for making you hurt me, that I forgot my true value as a person, and a lady for most.
The pain molded me like this, the guilt has taken me to the extent of losing my principles in life. The pain made me loved you more, but in resist I learned to play it...
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Thank you.
I am going to describe someone. Simple words, but I want you to imagine this person in your head. Imagine:
A boy.
You’re best friend,
Someone who you love,
Someone that you trusted.
Every girl has this one boy. You can love them with all of your heart, but you know that you cannot be with him. You can’t be with him not only because he’s your best friend, yet because you are also toxic. You guys fight more than you love each other, but he consistently tells you that he loves you. Imagine, giving him the one thing that you can never give back. Your heart and body. You loved him with all of your heart, and he used you. Let me guess, you have someone in your mind. If you do this letter is for you.
I can honestly say that I never thought I would be writing a...
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I know we're more than friends. I can feel that and I know you, too. But, we're not lovers. We're undefined.
I'm hating myself for being a coward. I cannot even ask you what I mean to you. The way you treat me. The way you talk to me. The way you care for me. I know, it's all special. But there are also moments that I know you are chasing other girls. And it hurts me. Do you even know that? It kills me every time. You're hurting me, without even you knowing that you do. I don't know what to do anymore. We're the best of friends, I can't just leave you behind. I'd be too selfish if I do that. And you know the perks of being the best friend? You can tell me anything, any time. But deeply I would really like to shout that I don't want to hear it. You know why? Because it's killing me. I'...
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A few months back I parked in this same spot as we discussed your mistake. With tears in your eyes you told me you'd never hurt me like that again. You promised me. You never broke that promise. Instead I hurt you, in a different way. Who would've thought months later I'd be sitting here wondering if there will ever be an "us" again. Everyone is worried about me, and I can see it. My dad begged me not to hurt myself, and not to take anything. The truth is, I haven't even thought about it. The last time I took a tool to my skin you knew without even seeing. You could sense it. I promised you I wouldn't do it again. I won't break that. And I refuse to let myself stoop to the low of needing medicine that's not mine to take away the hurt. Maybe this is my karma for hurting you. I think I'm...
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