It was fun at first, we were friends. Then feelings started to grow. Neither of us really wanted a relationship but after a while it started to become one. We both had issues from past relationships that left us scared and broken. I pushed those issues aside to pursue a future with you because you arent the one who hurt me. You never put aside your issues from the one who hurt you. Instead you pushed then on me. And time and time again i tried to make you realize im not that guy. I dont want to hurt you. I did everything i could think of to make you happy. I told you i was hurt before so i understand your pain. I gave you honesty and got deceived. I gave you a piece of me i didnt want to give out again. And you kept to yourself. When your ex popped up it was over for us. You wasted...
Broken Hearts
I wish I knew how to fix this. I wish I knew what to do and this is one of if not the hardest thing to write for me. I want to just scream from the rooftops that I am broken beyond repair and every worst nightmare I ever thought could possibly ever happen has happened. But I can't. I won't. I am too... something.
I want to be able to not be broken. Since I was a kid I knew something was wrong with me and have always felt like I was damaged goods. And this suspicion has been confirmed in the worst way possible. I know you wouldn't leave me but it doesn't stop my mind from telling me you should. I know you won't but I still think you should. I wouldn't blame you. I mean it's like someone who has a communicable disease that doesn't tell their partner and gets them ill. How wrong is that?...
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A letter of healing.
A letter to the Dad that walked out of my life.
Dear Dad,
As I am seating here watching my kids running around chasing our dog in a failed attempt to give him a bath, laughing, giggling and making memories, I can't help to wonder why?
Why did you choose to walk out of my life? Why did you think that your fellings and your life where more important than mine and the only ones the mattered? Why did you choose to walk away from memories, from laughter and unconditional love?
As I watch my kids run around in laughter, I realize that I could never understand your motive when all I want to do in life is love my kids more than anything.
Today I am a grown woman, some say I'm broken, some say I'm strong, I say I just take it one day at a...
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When I first meet you, I never thought you would end up meaning so much to me, we were best friends, we told each other everything, we spoke about our hopes our dreams, what we wanted to do when we left school, we had a perfect friendship. You had a girlfriend, she was beautiful, one of my closest friends and you had been with her for what felt like forever, I respected your relationship as you respected my “relationship”, you know the one, you were there when it ended you comforted me, you were there for me as a friend, a shoulder to cry on and when I finally got over that everything changed. We started to become closer, we started spending more time together, I started to develop feelings for you, and this is where you should have stepped in, where you should have drawn the line, but...
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Let me rewind things up and explain things from my perspective. I considered you a dear friend. A precious person to me. I went out of my way countless times to make sure you were okay. To try to make you tell me about your problems so I could help you find a solution. To try to cheer you up. To help you in various ways. To give you little gifts out of pure kindness and without even thinking of a payback. Because I thought this was the kind of relationship we had. Being nice to each other without any motive. No matter what. The only thing I wanted was respect.
Yes, I did fall in love with you along the way. I put up with it because i thought it would pass away and it didn't. And when I understood it won't, I did put up with it because you told me "You're my only friend." and I had to be...
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To the boy who didn't care enough,
It's been so long since we talked properly but your face still flashes in front of my eyes sometimes,catching me by surprise every single time. No, this isn't a love letter that I wish you'd read and finally realize that you love me back. Not in the slightest. This is me trying to explain my side of our story to you.
Lets go back about 18 months. I was home for Australia for my summer break and that's when everything changed. In this world of Tinder and Bumble, we met each other in a rather old fashioned way. Yep, that's right. On Facebook, of course. We started chatting and clicked instantly. So much so that within only a few days I recognized that what we had was different from anything I had ever experienced before. But there's always a catch. Ours...
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Dear mom,
You haven't been gone that long, at least not in my head. Every morning I wake up feeling like I've just heard the news all over again for the first time. And quietly I pretend to be okay. Even as my head pounds and my eyes begin to water, I walk around with a smile on my face.
Recently i've learned that I hate drugs more than ever. Whether it's the needle injected hell that stole you from me, or the common cigarette. I'll always feel as if you chose the needle over me, and I don't know if I can forgive you for that, but most of all I'll never forgive myself for not stopping you. They all say it's not my fault, but I don't want to blame you but I want to blame someone. Anyone who glances at me, because without blame I have nothing. No grudges to hold. No one else to be mad...
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Dear Self,
I’ll never let you see a tear fall from my eyes. There will be a complete blank stare with some blood shot cries. It was all downhill so I slammed on my brakes; I never knew that the slow cruise would reveal so many snakes. I thought for sure it was so easy this way, At least uphill you know the ones around you are earning their stay. I’m not writing this to try to bribe you and make you stay, more or less to convince you to go away. God knows I never wanted to have to beg this way.
So you did what you wanted, everything was about you; it turned your life so grey. How long did you think you could hide behind those knock off shades? What or who are you pretending to be anyways? Now you leave me with the confusion of this mess of a life we have made. Honestly I just don’t...
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You were never the perfect choice.
I knew that from the beginning, but I didn't care. I refused to listen to my friends' warnings that we clashed too much. I refused to listen to the little red flags at the beginning. All I knew was that I saw a caring person who needed someone to help them, and I wanted to be that person.
What I didn't know until months out of our relationship (if you could even call it that) is that you are the worst kind of abuser: one who doesn't even try to abuse someone but just does.
You see, you're the kind of person who believes that you really want to help people be the best they can be. But the problem is that you want everyone to be your version of the best they can be. You want everyone to meld and form to your version of a perfect world. That'...
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I met the most wonderful girl I could ever possibly meet. We became a couple and fell very much in love. We enjoyed being together, talked on phone everyday. Never missed saying good morning or good night. She was pure beauty. Her face, her smile, everything was great. When we kissed I was on another planet, when we made love I was in heaven. I was getting ready to propose and she had no idea. Suddenly she says she stopped loving me, this hurt so bad, for three days all I did was lay in bed and cry. Now she has accused me of doing something that is not true. I am so lost without here and she wont even talk to me, not even to try to be friends. I do not know what to do but I do know I do not want to live life without here. Mary if you see this, I love you so very much
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