Dear Unnamed Person,
I am writing this letter to you because I may never get the opportunity to say the things that I need to say to you. On December 31, 2014, life as I knew it, changed forever. When my son died, a part of me died with him. For 2 ½ years I have struggled to create some sort of semblance of life for myself. I have learned to live without my child, while living with an ache in my heart that will never heal.
Up until a few weeks ago, I was adjusting and learning to move forward with my life. I was surviving without my child, even if it was just to honor him, then new evidence and witnesses came forward to reveal that everything relating to my child’s death was a complete lie. Our family had been made to believe that my child was driving your truck because you...
Broken Hearts
Mr B,
My God do I love you! I would literally do anything for you... I would fight until every bone in my body was broken to protect you. Your happiness is my happiness. Full stop.
You've asked me a question today that my ears have ached to hear for so long. But the truth is, for the first time ever, my heart isn't able to override my head. No, I will not move in with you. I will not get back together with you. I do not want to be yours again. Ha! Who the hell would have thought I'd ever feel that way!
Truth is, the tears... The endless heart ache... The times my stomach lurched... The days I just about managed to swallow my food only to feel it come back up. All of those pains are still so raw and so gut wrenching that I simply do not have the strength or the courage to face...
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A letter to myself, and to those who had the courage to let the one they love go.
Without you, he would have to look for something to fill the other side of his mattress, where you once confessed undying love for each other through tears, laughter, bites on necks and tangled hair. When the stories that were told on that mattress are so easily overwritten by another femme, you will inevitably envy her for grasping the thing that you once caught, loved, and let go. With his arm underneath her neck, he will be reminded of you through the hole that you accidentally put in the wall on your, now her, side of the bed, with your head, and the hooks on his ceiling which you once hung small things that you know would make him happy because you knew, and know him better than anyone else. He will...
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To my abusive ex,
Even as I set down to write this, I can’t help but think that it is pointless. I know you think that you did nothing wrong. I know that you think my actions excuse your behavior. I know you think that you were a good boyfriend. I know that you think that I’m just some crazy slut crying out for attention. I know that you think that I ruined the best thing I ever had.
I know you think these things because there is a small voice inside me that thinks these things too. It is a voice you planted inside my head. One that I will never fully be able to get rid of. It reminds me of all the nice things you did. How you used to brush my hair behind my ear and hold me when I cried. It tells me what you told me time and time again. That nobody can love me like you did.
Then...
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My sweet handsome man,
There are many things you need to know, and things that I know you are thinking about. You live your life in a constant state of denial. You are the most prideful and stubborn man I've ever met, but one thing that we both know is that you've never been able to hide what's going on in your mind and your heart from me. You have always tried, but eventually you do finally spill your guts and tell me that I was right all along and that you were trying to hide. Just like the time we had a huge fight over something very stupid and hurtful I did to you. While yes we got back together within a few weeks, you closed yourself off emotionally to me for months and months...eventually though, you took me to lunch on a rainy day, you turned to me and took my face in your hands...
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Dear M
It was nearly two years ago when you spoke to me, a friendless soul, so kindly. I was going through a painful divorce. I had vowed never to fall in love. You crossed my path multiple times. Unconsciously, and against my better judgment, I began to fall for you. I did not, however, utter a word to you, or do anything to get in your way.
Then, nearly, an year ago, our paths crossed once again. This time, you looked at me and smiled, out of the blue. I was left speechless; my heart felt a dull, soundless blow. Yet, I did not speak to you, or get in your way. When you were around, I would stare into nothingness. Then our paths crossed once again. This time you smiled that beautiful smile of yours and said "Hi"! I replied back, unable to believe my ears.
This continued for a...
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Right from the beginning there were signs of you being a red flag. Me who had just gone through a very long relationship and a horrible break-up choose to ignore it. I thought you were going to help me move on. Turns out I was wrong. I got your number from a friend. I never expected you to be such a big part in my life. We started out texting. I was quite younger than you but you would've never guessed. We went on cheesy dates to places like the movies and ice skating. You truly made me happy.
Your grades started to drop because we were spending do much time together and your parents decided it would be best to spend awhile away from each other. I gave you my iPod to stay in touch. But you didn't use it to talk to just me. This is when it started. The lies. The manipulation....
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Little things sometimes take on an almost symbolic quality; I've found that even the smallest of objects can hold such intense and detailed memories.
The oxo cubes in the cupboard remind me of all those times when we were slightly hard up for money, and so I'd make us chicken noodle soup out of them; there's one left now, skulking at the back, and as I cleaned the cupboard out earlier, I just stood for an hour, looking at it. Remembering all those times we'd sit down during the winter, bowls on lap on that grotty sofa, huddled up close together and watching The Simpsons on your iPad. Those winter evenings when it didn't matter how horrible our flat was, we'd just turn the lights down and focus on each other. Back when we used to make each other happy.
I know you told me to go and see...
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My brother, I grew up playing, fighting, teaching, telling on, protecting, hating, loving and much more. With you I have some of the best memories in the world! You ensured I remained immature right into my adult life, and never letting me take anything too seriously. Over the past three years we had really begun to grow a much closer friendship. I learnt just how terrifyingly similar we are as we made plans to do so many adventurous activities together!
I have so many regrets. I didn't teach you to drive, buy you the best presents, I shouted at you and gave out to you for the silliest things. I travelled the world and seen so many places you would love and never took you there to see them. For this I am truly sorry!
I had the absolute pleasure of watching you grow from a tiny baby...
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Dear the person who drives me crazy,
Iv fallen for you. I didn't think I would but I have and its driving me crazy. Its driving me crazy because I don't think you feel the same. It drives me crazy that your the only person who has ever made me feel scared of losing someone. It drives me crazy how my heart actually aches knowing you don't feel the same.
You talk to me as if your talking about me and I fool myself into thinking you are. Then when I realise your not talking about me my heart aches even more. You make me feel as if I'm the only person you talk to the way you do like I'm different but I'm starting to believe I'm not. You make me feel things iv never felt for another person this feels real like those stupid movies with the happy endings when the two end up together but...
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