Dear Dad,
I remember when I was just six or seven years old and you came home early from work and started to pack bags and I asked you “daddy why are you packing bags are we leaving” and you said “no baby i’m just going away for a while” I was hurt, it felt like god let his anger out on me.....for no reason. I felt like I was going to run into an asthma attack…… like someone was pushing hard on my chest, or like I was getting kicked in my stomach over and over and over and over again. As tears started to roll down my face I stared at you in your big brown eyes for the last time and gave you a big hug goodbye.
I thought that i’d never see you again until…….
A few years later when I was about nine, I was at grandma's house for my cousin tykeaiahs birthday party. I was in the house...
Broken Hearts
Dear brother,
Hey brother it seems like yesterday you were teaching me how to make your famous pizza with all the different sauces, even the sauce that you put on top of the pizza. It was so fun,we listen to music and danced and just goofed around till the pizza was done. Then after we would go in the basement and watch movies and then I would fall asleep. When I fell asleep you would put a cover on me and kiss my forehead.
I really miss you so much bro. Everything you have told me has helped me so much in life and in school. Just know I’m so proud that you went to the army. I think and talk about you every single day, I even keep your army picture in my phone case. So everyday I have my brother with me everywhere I go. By the way you’re probably worried about me...
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You don't realize what you're doing, do you? Drinking every night because you're stressed or because it's cool to drink or because you can't do it when you're older or simply because you're bored. So you decide to drink your life away, you didn't see it coming but I did. You went from a kid who likes to have fun to someone who depends on alcohol to live or even to sleep through the night.
"I’m not an alcoholic" you say as you're taking your 12th shot in the past hour. "I’m just having fun" you say as you're taking your 15th shot. It’s gotten to the point that you can drink a whole bottle of alcohol and "feel nothing". "I’m not even drunk" you say as you're stumbling around trying to stand.
You decided that alcohol is more important than keeping relationships. You don't even know but...
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Dear boy who treated me like shit,
First off I just wanted to say fuck you! I gave you my all. I turned down everyone, including some of your friends, just to be with you. Also fuck you for making me question my self worth. I laid on the floor bawling my eyes out way too many times wondering why I wasn't enough for you and why you needed to "hangout" with the girl I hate. Fuck you for the countless nights of insomnia and the hundreds of panic attacks that I still have to this day.
But also I wanted to say, thank you.
Thank you for making me question my self worth. Thank you for making me realize that I deserve the world and nothing less than that! Thank you for wasting my time so I could be ready to really look for someone who's going to treat me with the love and respect that you...
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Dear boy who treated me like shit,
First off I just wanted to say fuck you! I gave you my all. I turned down everyone, including some of your friends, just to be with you. Also fuck you for making me question my self worth. I laid on the floor bawling my eyes out way too many times wondering why I wasn't enough for you and why you needed to "hangout" with the girl I hate. Fuck you for the countless nights of insomnia and the hundreds of panic attacks that I still have to this day.
But also I wanted to say, thank you.
Thank you for making me question my self worth. Thank you for making me realize that I deserve the world and nothing less than that! Thank you for wasting my time so I could be ready to really look for someone who's going to treat me with the love and respect...
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I'd always known. I'd known there was something that really set you apart from previous boyfriends and crushes and other possible love-interests. I looked past the quirks, the questionable remarks that you sometimes gave, knowing that you chose me to be with. You chose me over anyone. Everyone. Now today I look back and see I was just telling myself that to feel better. To make an excuse as to what I subconsciously had known was taking place in your mind as you kissed me, held my hand, cuddled me, made love to me, and told me how much you "loved" me. It's absolutely not anyone's fault that you are who you are today. It's who you've always been and I was ignorant not to stop and ask myself the difference between what I wanted and what was the best (and right) thing for you.
Since we...
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May 24, 2016. I'll never be able to pinpoint what exactly made me pick up the phone and make an appointment for an ultrasound for that afternoon. Maybe it was because I suddenly realized that I no longer "felt pregnant". It hit me all at once that I hadn't felt sick in days,...
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May 24, 2016. I'll never be able to pinpoint what exactly made me pick up the phone and make an appointment for an ultrasound forthat afternoon. Maybe it was because I suddenly realized that I no longer "felt pregnant". It hit me all at once that I hadn't felt sick in days,...
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Sometimes we have to risk getting hurt to find what we are looking for. That one thing that makes our soul sing. It's not that we won't get hurt, it's more that when we find that one thing, we are willing to endure all things for it. Just as I did you. But after everything, I have to face the fact that while you are that one thing for me, I am not that one thing for you. And even though I will never regret believing in you, you were not my dream to dream. I don't believe there is a dream for me in this lifetime. At least not one that is willing to take a chance on me. Mine, likes to take chances on people he already knows will let him down, and ones that will not love him back in the same way he loves them. I won't fault him for this. It took everything I had to keep putting myself out...
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I was never one who had much self confidence.
If we're being honest, I lacked it completely for many years.
But then I found it. I realized all the energy I had wasted hating myself was easily converted into accepting and loving myself.
I realized I wasn't someone who needed to be hated, especially if I felt like I was enough the way I was.
And then you came along. You came along and one look into your beautiful eyes and I was gone. I was completely trapped in your game.. too bad I didn't realize it was a game at the time.. If I had.. well if I had then maybe I could have saved myself.
At one point you told me I made you happy. You said "I love you" daily.. We talked every minute that we could, my phone seemed to always be ringing with another message from you. That went on...
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