I know we're more than friends. I can feel that and I know you, too. But, we're not lovers. We're undefined.
I'm hating myself for being a coward. I cannot even ask you what I mean to you. The way you treat me. The way you talk to me. The way you care for me. I know, it's all special. But there are also moments that I know you are chasing other girls. And it hurts me. Do you even know that? It kills me every time. You're hurting me, without even you knowing that you do. I don't know what to do anymore. We're the best of friends, I can't just leave you behind. I'd be too selfish if I do that. And you know the perks of being the best friend? You can tell me anything, any time. But deeply I would really like to shout that I don't want to hear it. You know why? Because it's killing me. I'm your best friend that's why I'd do anything just to make you happy even if it means I will never be a part of that happiness.
Don't you know how much I wanted to tell you that you mean so much to me? I tried many times actually, in many different ways but you just don't get it. You're just so numb. You're insensitive. Why? If I have the guts, that's the exact question that I would like to ask you. I would like to just move on. There could never be an "us". That's why I don't like to stay. I wish I could just simple find a way out from this bond that we have. It'll be easier for me to move on then. May be it's my fault. I let these things happen. I'm sorry. I'm not blaming you for this. You've been so honest and loyal. You're a good man. Just do know that you deserve the best. Don't ever settle for anything less than you deserve.
That girl that you're thinking, I hope she knows she's the lucky one. I hope she'll never break your heart. I hope she'll realize what she has. I love you that's why I'm not holding on to you. I want you to choose your own. I will never force myself to you. If you don't want me, it's fine. Just do know that I will always be your best friend. I will always be here. May be I'm just silent at times, but I'm here. I'm still ready to lend my ears. Still ready to give advice and to scold you every time you're a mess. I'm here. No matter how many times I would feel that pain. It's okay. I'll be just fine, just like I always do. Don't mind this feeling that I have. It will pass may be. There's only one thing that will remain for sure; I will always be just your best friend.
