First and foremost let me start off by thanking you from the bottom of my heart. I know you're reading and re-reading that first sentence thinking I'm, in some way, being sarcastic.. but that couldn't be more false. Because of YOU I am where I am today, and it started the ground work of who I was to become. Let me explain..
Remember all those times you punched me? Spit in my face.. called me names...isolated me from all my friends and family. Remember when you'd get hired at the same jobs I was working at so you could constantly keep an eye on me? Or how about the time you physically kicked me out of the car, and left me on the side of the road in the middle of no where? All that time I forgave you, let you convince me I was some out of control, selfish wife.. that took you for granted. All that power I gave you over me, leaving me sobbing on the bathroom floor praying to whomever was listening to help me find a way out.. and than it happened... the moment of clarity I had been searching for.
I found out who your girlfriend was..
I expected you to be horrified..to be sorry, to at least care about how devastating this was for me to find out. But instead you laughed in my face, you thought this whole ordeal was funny.. and even admitted that you enjoyed having 2 girls fight over you. As if your some sort of prize to be won. It was in that very moment where reality hit me over the head, and woke me up to who you really are. An asshole!! You are a huge, sociopathic, piece of fucking shit... and as far as I'm concerned that other chick can have you Because I'm beyond done.
And for that I thank you. Thank you for being who you are.. thank you for all the bruises, the spit, the bite marks, the tears, and sleepless nights. Thank you for finding someone else because if you had made the choice to stay faithful I might still be with you today .... and THAT is truly terrifying.
Thank you for taking my power away, because I'm now stronger and much more wiser than ever before. Thank you for being my prime example in what NOT to look for in a guy. You have served your purpose in my life, and you served it well...thank you. I just can't say that enough. I have so much joy and happiness in my life today, and it was you who pushed me to find that within myself. To stop looking for it in other people, to love myself, and find someone who does the same.
I know you have never taken responsibility for anything, and I don't need you to anymore. It took me a long time to get to that point, but I don't want it anymore...it serves no purpose to me as it is now in the past. However, I want you to know that I forgive you..I hold no more anger in my soul for you, and I pray to the universe that some day you get whatever help it is you need..so you too can experience the joys in life. I know your struggles; past and present.. and I hope you can overcome those. Be well, and goodbye.
