An Open Letter to the Girl I Never Had

There was nothing extraordinary during the first time that I saw you. You were then a usual person whom I bumped into while I was living my usual life. However, fate brought me closer to you. We started talking, getting little chats...little things, just like that. I didn't know that was then and there I started falling for someone that will never look at me the same way; someone who will never know how I really feel; someone who will not even think of loving me. After countless times of denials, I have come to the realization that I like you, and sometimes I had thoughts of telling you. But I was too afraid and hesitant because I know for sure that we don't stand a chance. I believe that men are exclusively for women, and never have I challenged my ideologies and principles in life, because these are what I stand for...except for now. This is the first time that I questioned my principles and even on the verge of disputing them. However, I stood with my faith. Though it is hard to go through everyday, hoping that I will bump into you, and once again have those small talks, I just learned to live with the pain each day, and indeed, I am extremely missing you. We all go through a phase in life and maybe this is just one of those phases that I have to overcome; I know that God wanted to teach me something, but for now I still haven't realized. I do not deserve your smiles, hugs, and most especially I do not deserve you. Because there is a man out there that is worthy of you. I hope that in the future, you will be well taken care of and loved the way we all deserve to be. May you always be reminded that You are beautifully, wonderfully, and fearfully created by God. Sorry for bothering you, sorry for not telling you earlier, sorry for the confusion that this letter has given you, sorry for not telling you the reason why I suddenly kept my distance, sorry. Please forget everything about me. Thank you for the memories, I will surely treasure every moment. And most importantly, thank you for this exciting feeling that you have brought into my life. I will always be hoping that this letter will reach you one day. I've loved you enough, to let you go