I have so many things I've needed and wanted to say to you since we've parted.
For starters, nothing has been the same without you. My heart aches then I see something beautiful, because I wish you were beside me to experience it too. It scares me that I'm making new memories without you, because up to this point in my life you have been a essential part in every beautiful memory I have. I'm slowly healing enough to the point where I want to experience new things, and go new places. But I want to do these things for you, and I hope by some miracle that you will be able to see it too. Emma, please do not think I don't value the memories we have made together, I just wish you were here to make new beautiful memories.
I also want to thank you for being the best friend I have ever had in my entire life. And thank you for letting me take care of you this year at college, those memories I will treasure close to my heart forever. And I would also like to thank you for being my teammate, roommate and locker buddy. These are the qualities about you I am missing the most right now. It hurts to come home to an empty house, when I'm expecting to see you. I promise to put my heart and soul into our volleyball season next year. We will win for you Emma, I can promise you that.
It's truly cliche, but without you here the world actually does seem a little darker. I was so lucky to have a ray of sunshine like you in my life, and I know you will continue to be in my life in different and unexplained ways.
I always hear "Emmalee had a smile that could light up and entire room." I completely agree with that statement. You had the ability to bring people together, with your charismatic and outgoing personality. People were, and still continue to be, attracted to your beautiful energy and radiant soul. That was one of your best known qualities.
Emmalee, I miss coming home to you painting in the kitchen, or attempting to cook us dinner. I miss doing homework with you while we laughed so hard and burnt our dinner. I miss long bus rides with you, always making everyone laugh and smile. I miss nights with you and the girls. But most of all, I'm going to miss seeing #15 on the court for the Kodiaks.
My plan is to honour you in every aspect of my life, I plan to live a life good enough for two people.
I want to make you proud.
Endless love my darling,
Until we meet again,