Its me, Alexandra lol. I know tonight hurt us both but more importantly it hurt you. You have been dealing with so much in the past few months and I have been there for you, or at least try to. We fought about something stupid, and we both got lost. I was afraid of loosing you, because you're the best thing that has ever happened to me; but I learned something. When something gets hard, you don't walk away, you stay and fight for each other, you taught me that.
Hurting people is inevitable, you can't stop it from happening. You are going to upset and hurt people, but most of us never mean to hurt the people we love. It's a scary thought, thinking about someone you love who can walk away tomorrow. So I did what I knew how to, I pushed your buttons, not because I meant to but because once I did it, I didn't know how to stop. That's our biggest fear, getting rejected by the one we love, who sometimes can never have. I am sorry for hurting you, and I know as well as you do that I will hurt you again, but never meaning to.
I don't want to dive in too deep. I am 17 and already looking at apartments and planning our future life. What if I plan my whole future life and then you leave? What would happen then? You are different, I don't worry often about loosing you but when I do, I get terrified. You treat me like a queen, and you love me for who I am. I can't ask for anything more. I am building a home in your heart, I just hope that when I finally settle down for good, you want to as well. It's little ironic, we all end the hurting the people we love the most, the ones that we are so afraid of loosing. I love you and I always will. Forever and Always.
To The Boy Who I Hurt, Not Meaning To